Rumor has it😱

Lol hi guys. This week was good but like ppl are irritating to the max, I swear. First I'll start with Mrs.Shinjo, like OMG I'm so close to hating her it's unreal, it's as bad as me not wanting to go to her for her to sign grad form bc she's just gonna yell at me. EVERYTIME I see her she has something negative to say to me like stfu, I didn't ask for your opinion bc it's basically irrelevant just like you. Like shit. Ugh. So when we were working on Thursday during advisory me, Asia, & Sheila were sitting bc our legs got tired and when she sees us she gets all crazy, and when she scolds us she only pointing at me and yelling at me! Like wth is that? Did you not see the other two ppl sitting as well? Or are you blind? Like wtf. And then she goes "do you even care? Or not? Bc you just look so irritated with me" LIKE UM DUH IM FUCKING IRRIATED WITH YOU, GET OUT OF MY FACE. Omg I can't even with her. She's just too annoying. Then we have ppl who like to spread rumors saying I do inappropriate things with other students behind buildings like ok whatever, bc I'm that dumb to stuff my tounge down someone's throat in school where there's always ppl watching HAHAHA. Then I get accused for cyberbullying which I wasn't even. Like why does she even wanna start drama and bring her mom all the way to ilima? Like you don't even go here so wth ._. Like idk, I mean I care that ppl talk about me but then I don't. It's complicated. Like now that I'm thinking about this I didn't have a good week. Like I cried in pd. 5 yesterday which was totally embarrassing and I cried on Tuesday in pd.4 which is even more embarrassing. Like it just shows ppl how weak I am and how much something so little but so big can get to me. I think maybe one of the only good parts of my week was having a meaningful discussion with Mr.Ing and the meeting we had. Yeah, probably the only 2 things I got out of this week haha. I'm just really tired and I can't wait to leave. I don't even think I have anything left in me already bc that's how IRRIATED and tired I am. But I just have to keep pushing through. Only 2 weeks left. Just gotta keep that in mind. Summer and going to Campbell next school year will be my motivation to be strong and leave Ilima on a good note. 

Highlight of my week. Idk if I have one but iguess it would have to the banquet pictures coming in. I've been worrying so much bc I thought I'd look ugly in them but they actually turned out really nice. I like them a lot. I took 2. One with Josh and one with the people of my table plus Tiffany bc she wanted to be in it lol. Another highlight was the discussion with Mr.Ing. Even though he's probs mad at me bc he said I'm bullying him with all my questions lolol. Ugh idk what else to say for my highlight bc I hardly have anything. It just makes me mad how much ppl can just ruin your week by saying, accusing, and doing something to you. One thing that bothered me this week is when Mr.Ing said on Friday "try not to get in trouble while doing your job" & everyone looked at me. Like ok, ye'knoo bc that soo doesn't make me feel bad and embarrassed, bc I'm literally like the only one who messes up. Just idk. Idk a lot of things now, haha, I'm always saying idk now. Like I don't even know why I alway say that now. 

Lesson learned is look at the whole picture before you say anything. Don't just look at one part and assume something. Bc you could be taking something out of context and turning it into something bad. Also don't be jealous. I think that's a reason why most of us are always upset and mad about that one thing everyone talks about. Or maybe it's something else but who knows so yeah. I think it was a good idea to have that meeting, to reassure everyone and explain everything. I think some ppl didnt get anything out of the meeting though. And I felt like some ppl had a lot to say but didn't wanna say anything. I feel like some ppl didnt even wanna be there and that meeting didnt help them at all bc they probably feel the same way and think the same way. But tbh it actually helped for me. It helped me understand better and knowing the reason for everything just reassures me that there's always a resonable explanation and reason for everything. 

Well bye guys. Have a good weekend❤