BACK! But am I better?
Wow, it’s been years since I’ve been on here and written a blog but I’m honesty very excited because it’s been something that’s been needed for me to do for a while. I feel as if with all the stress I’ve been experiencing this is a good outlet to share how I feel. But I won’t get in too deep of it all.
SO hey kids, it’s Mackenzie and welcome to my blogger. Make sure you hit that follow button cause I’m back at every end of the month, or more if I decide to write special guest blogs. Anyways, this month has been crazy in both a fun and stressful way. Even though homecoming happened in September, I’d still like to note that it was very eventful and an overall good way to end my last spirit week and homecoming ever :( As for the start of October, I was pretty much booked with everything DANCE. We had our yearly concert for the second and third weekend of October, and our rehearsals for the first week of October. It was a very emotional time for me because it was my last concert ever. I literally won’t be doing this again because I’ll be off in college next year. I started with my studio when I was about 12-13 years old and I left soccer for dance, which I believe was a wise choice on my part. Dance has helped me expand to be someone I never thought I could be, if you know me I’m actually not that emotional. I never like to tell people all the problems happening in my life and I’m very reserved on how I feel about certain things. I really just like to keep things to myself and I don’t seek the advice that I need. Dance helps me to express how I feel in ways I didn’t know I could. I hope to pursue some kind of career in it and to double major in that and nursing for my time in college. But, if you want to watch me dance let me know cause competition is next year and there’s also community performances ((; After getting through all the dance madness and having that last full week of October to myself, I was able to reflect on a few things which could be bad and good depending on how I look at it. I won’t go in too deep about it but I’ve been going through a lot with boy drama lmao, how gross. I haven’t gone through that since intermediate honestly, but it’s taken up a lot of my thoughts which is really distracting to me and I’m realizing that I need to focus on more important things and I really need to find other things besides dance to keep busy and away from the drama. But, overall October was pretty good month and I can’t wait for Halloween tomorrow!
After sharing about my problems just now, I feel as if something I could do better and improve on for myself is basically learning how to do things for myself and not worrying about others. It does seem a bit selfish but I’ve been putting myself last for a while and it’s not really fair at all. Especially now that I’m a senior, I really need to be focusing on my future, applying for colleges, and my plan for when I actually leave Hawaii. It’s not the time to be worrying about things that won’t stick with me when these last 7 months of high school are done. I feel as if when I was in intermediate that’s all I focused on; the drama, the boys, the friends. And I’m not saying that you should never experience it and you should never focus and put time into those things because you honestly need to in order to learn and grow from it. What I’m saying is, don’t get caught up in it. You never want drama with other people and trying too hard to stick out with certain people be the focus of your life. It’s honestly a drag and time consuming, and if you’re in leadership you’re way better than all that crap.
I think that’s all I have to say for this month. Make sure you read that advice and take it! Tune in next month for more ((:
SO hey kids, it’s Mackenzie and welcome to my blogger. Make sure you hit that follow button cause I’m back at every end of the month, or more if I decide to write special guest blogs. Anyways, this month has been crazy in both a fun and stressful way. Even though homecoming happened in September, I’d still like to note that it was very eventful and an overall good way to end my last spirit week and homecoming ever :( As for the start of October, I was pretty much booked with everything DANCE. We had our yearly concert for the second and third weekend of October, and our rehearsals for the first week of October. It was a very emotional time for me because it was my last concert ever. I literally won’t be doing this again because I’ll be off in college next year. I started with my studio when I was about 12-13 years old and I left soccer for dance, which I believe was a wise choice on my part. Dance has helped me expand to be someone I never thought I could be, if you know me I’m actually not that emotional. I never like to tell people all the problems happening in my life and I’m very reserved on how I feel about certain things. I really just like to keep things to myself and I don’t seek the advice that I need. Dance helps me to express how I feel in ways I didn’t know I could. I hope to pursue some kind of career in it and to double major in that and nursing for my time in college. But, if you want to watch me dance let me know cause competition is next year and there’s also community performances ((; After getting through all the dance madness and having that last full week of October to myself, I was able to reflect on a few things which could be bad and good depending on how I look at it. I won’t go in too deep about it but I’ve been going through a lot with boy drama lmao, how gross. I haven’t gone through that since intermediate honestly, but it’s taken up a lot of my thoughts which is really distracting to me and I’m realizing that I need to focus on more important things and I really need to find other things besides dance to keep busy and away from the drama. But, overall October was pretty good month and I can’t wait for Halloween tomorrow!
After sharing about my problems just now, I feel as if something I could do better and improve on for myself is basically learning how to do things for myself and not worrying about others. It does seem a bit selfish but I’ve been putting myself last for a while and it’s not really fair at all. Especially now that I’m a senior, I really need to be focusing on my future, applying for colleges, and my plan for when I actually leave Hawaii. It’s not the time to be worrying about things that won’t stick with me when these last 7 months of high school are done. I feel as if when I was in intermediate that’s all I focused on; the drama, the boys, the friends. And I’m not saying that you should never experience it and you should never focus and put time into those things because you honestly need to in order to learn and grow from it. What I’m saying is, don’t get caught up in it. You never want drama with other people and trying too hard to stick out with certain people be the focus of your life. It’s honestly a drag and time consuming, and if you’re in leadership you’re way better than all that crap.
I think that’s all I have to say for this month. Make sure you read that advice and take it! Tune in next month for more ((:
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